The last days I behaved very badly. Prolly wasn´t totally aware of my role in this world as a pup, so I asked too many questions to my MASTER, argued and acted like a spoiled child.
He demanded me to read a little more about being a true pup and make some pup friends trough twitter. So, I ordered some books from amazon.com - unfortunatly they will only arrive here by Feb 26th. Then the logical thing to do was to put my little pup brain to work and managed to get at least one to read immediatly on Kindle. The book is called Grrr! by Michael Daniels and made me understand a lot of things I was unaware of. Also, I´m doing everything I can right now to make friends and learn a bit.
Yesterday I felt so ashamed of my behavior that I couln´t stop crying. Still, today I am crying of shame and angry at myself. Its unaccetable for a pup behave like I did. My role in this world is only to serve my MASTER and make him pleased, and as fas as I tried, I didn´t do it properly for the last two or more days.
So, after accepting his punishment, I realized I wasn´t worth enough to sleep in a bed and spent the night in the floor of my bathroom. Also, today I am not eating, just drinking water from a temporary bowl, as a form of self-punishment. Maybe the only way to prove myself worthy of belonging to my beloved MASTER is doing my best to learn from my mistakes, even if this means suffering. Only pain can purify my soul, body and heart from being disrispectful at Him.
In case this can help other puppies going trought the same mistakes I made, from not understanting trully what a pup is supposed to be, I reccomend the books I ordered:
- Woof! Perspectives into the Erotic Care & Training of the Human Dog - Daniels, Michael
(recommended by my only pup friend Phoenix - thanks a lot)
- Master/slave Relations: Solutions 402, Living in Harmony - Rubel PhD, Robert J
- Master/slave Relations: Communications 401 - Rubel PhD, Robert
- Partners in Power: Living in Kinky Relationships - Rinella, Jack
- SM 101: A Realistic Introduction - Wiseman, Jay
- Grrr! - Daniels, Michael
- Protocol Handbook for the Leather Slave: Theory and Practice - Rubel PhD, Robert J
- Protocol Handbook for the Leather Slave: Theory and Practice - Rubel PhD, Robert J
All of them are available trough the Amazon website, and not very expensive.
Understanding what a human pup means is one of the most important parts of belonging to a MASTER. Otherwise - I can tell by my own recent experience - it will be learned the hardest and saddest way.
Hope you wish me luck.
Love for all my puppy colleagues,
Dobie
We pups must NOT only try, but BE the best for our MASTERS.
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